Been a little while

Its been a little while since I posted.  Things have been going good. I've lost about 5 more pounds. Working out at home instead of walking because of the cold weather. I'm feeling good about things overall not bad at all. Just trying to prepare myself for thanksgiving.

Feeling good

Yesterday was a good day. Not only had I lost 2 1/2 more pounds but I decided to go try on clothes. That's what I do Everytime I lose 10lbs or so. I feel like it's a test to myself. To see my progress. I was a size 28 jeans when I started I had now been in a size 20. But I really wanted to get into an 18 now because my 20s were getting loose. I tried them on got them on buttoned and half way zipped up.  I was soo close.  I went ahead and bought them and when I got home and tried them on again and I got them on and zipped.  I made these jeans my bitch. I'm so happy about that.  I decided to try on shirts and I got into a large sweater not from the plus sized section but the regular section. So overall it was a really good day so I rewarded my self with hummus. Hummus is my happy food.

Just another day

Feeling pretty good today. Got up and weighed myself and I was down about 1 1/2lbs since yesterday morning.  Then convinced myself to put on my hoodie and workout so me and my husband went for a walk. I'm thinking it will be a two workout type of day. Got home had one of the breakfast burritos we made yesterday. Now I have just been doing random things around the house. Not very exciting. But another day kicking fats ass. Now I'm off to go eat like I give a fuck.

FEELING GOOD!

feeling good today. woke up this morning and just like every morning i got up and weighed myself. before i even stepped on the scale i could tell i was down i could feel it. and i was down 1 1/2 lbs. which as always makes me happy nothing feels better than seeing and feeling the pounds come off. i love it. since i felt good i got dressed and went for my morning walk. not only do i feel great but my walk makes me feel so good and like i am accomplishing something. which i am making my body better. now time to make up a batch of healthy vegan burritos. i love that i can wrap them in foil and freeze them then all i have to do is microwave them when im ready. just another day kicking fats ass.

evaluation time

"Obese people have become enemies to their bodies. They view their bodies as traitors, ugly horrible things that have failed them." 

"Your body is not your enemy; it hasn't sabotaged your pleasure. It doesn't deserve your hate. You pour toxic poisonous food into it and your body works endlessly to clean it out. And to heal. And when you do it again, your body starts the whole process over. Your body never says to you, 'I hate what you're feeding me, I hate you.' Instead, your body says, 'I will make energy from what you have given me. I will move you closer to whatever you desire with the energy I make. I will gulp bad air and poisonous food and I will sit in one position even though it causes me pain, if that is what you want me to do. I am here to serve you. I am your best and oldest friend in this lifetime. I know you when you are tired, and sad, and when you hate me, I will still take what you give me and make energy for you. I love you. I forgive you, I'm sorry if what I do is not enough. Thank you for being one with me.'"

~Sara L. Stein, Obese from the Heart: A Fat Psychiatrist Discloses

Reading this is exactly what i needed to read. i decided to make a big change about 3 months ago but i can honestly admit that this is how i felt before i did that. i have considered my body my enemy but not anymore. im the only one to blame not my body not the food and not other people. no one forced me to eat and live the way i was. i made the choice in life and i have made this choice to change. time to take the bull by the horn and take this bitch down. 
kicking fats ass one pound at a time.

thug kitchen

as pretty recently converted vegan i love looking though different websites books ect. to find good recipes and other vegan information. i have some sites that i have been using but my new site/book i love is thug kitchen. i absolutely fucking love thug kitchen. i want to eat like i give a fuck. whats better than getting awesome vegan recipes and dirty fucking language. thats my type of cooking. it makes it fun for me and my husband. recently we spent at least an hour reading their recipes laughing our ass off at the name/descriptions of recipes.


just because its vegan food does not mean it cant be fucking awesome. from now on im going to eat like i give a fuck.

bringing the blog back

i decided i wanted to start blogging again. i had lost it for a long time and hit a all time low or high depending on how you look at it. my weight had gotten higher than it ever had before. and of course i had have that happen before but this time i just couldnt handle it. so i decided to make a change. i decided to get my shit together and make a change. i went vegan it has been alot easier than i thought it was going to be most of the time. lately i was stuggling some but i got my shit back in place. im so over screwing myself over which is what i always do no matter what. but its time for that to change for good. im teaching myself to look at food differently than i used to. because i went vegan i dont count calories or things that i used to i dont try to regulate things. i go to the farmers market twice a week and get fresh fruits and vegetables. we make our own bread and tortillas and anything else we can. i now go walking on a trail and workout at least 5 times a week. now the big thing is to plan the holidays so i have things to eat when everyone else is eating what they normally eat on thanksgiving/ christmas. that makes everything much easier on me if i just bring my own food. then i dont feel like i need to eat any of the things that everyone else is eating that just isnt healthy.