evaluation time

"Obese people have become enemies to their bodies. They view their bodies as traitors, ugly horrible things that have failed them." 

"Your body is not your enemy; it hasn't sabotaged your pleasure. It doesn't deserve your hate. You pour toxic poisonous food into it and your body works endlessly to clean it out. And to heal. And when you do it again, your body starts the whole process over. Your body never says to you, 'I hate what you're feeding me, I hate you.' Instead, your body says, 'I will make energy from what you have given me. I will move you closer to whatever you desire with the energy I make. I will gulp bad air and poisonous food and I will sit in one position even though it causes me pain, if that is what you want me to do. I am here to serve you. I am your best and oldest friend in this lifetime. I know you when you are tired, and sad, and when you hate me, I will still take what you give me and make energy for you. I love you. I forgive you, I'm sorry if what I do is not enough. Thank you for being one with me.'"

~Sara L. Stein, Obese from the Heart: A Fat Psychiatrist Discloses

Reading this is exactly what i needed to read. i decided to make a big change about 3 months ago but i can honestly admit that this is how i felt before i did that. i have considered my body my enemy but not anymore. im the only one to blame not my body not the food and not other people. no one forced me to eat and live the way i was. i made the choice in life and i have made this choice to change. time to take the bull by the horn and take this bitch down. 
kicking fats ass one pound at a time.